GOD IS AWESOME.
Hands down.
There's no doubt in my mind.
I want to shout His name and praise and worship Him.
I want to live my life here on earth all for Him.

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It's not that I don't want to hang out with you...It's that it hurts SO much to see the way you've changed.

Sleep Deprivation.

I can't fall back asleep:( It's quite sad.
I woke up when it started storming, and now I'm just really hungry, but can't gain enough energy to go eat something. Well anyway, last night, I had a very un-productive night. Me and Marge just drove around.

I've decided on my goal for this summer, for real. I think it's to just grow closer to God, and to spread His love. I think the last part is what I'm really bad at. It's like I worry soo much about what people think about me, I try to change who I am just for them. I don't want to do that anymore. I mean, if I'm a christian, then why don't I act like it ALL the time? I need to work on spreading His love. I need to work on loving everyone and not judging. That's pretty hard for me, but I'm trying. I focus too much on what others do wrong and not enough on what I do wrong.

Anyways..volunteering at Prairie Lakes's nursery tomorrow:) Kind of excited:)

VBS

VBS is over, and I guessed I liked it more than I thought. I miss the kids, they were cute:)

if you have food in the fridge, clothes on your back, a roof over your head & a place to sleep, you are richer than 75% of the world. if you have any money in the bank, your wallet & some spare change in a dish someplace, you are among the top 8% of the world’s wealthy. if you woke up this morning with more health than illness, you are more blessed than the million people who will not survive this week. if you have never experienced the danger of battle, the agony of imprisonment or torture, or the horrible pangs of starvation, you are luckier than 500 million people alive going through this suffering. if you can read this message you are more fortunate than the 3 billion people in the world who cannot read at all.

Well this is kind of powerful. This makes me want to do more. I know that right now, I am not doing all that I can. I just don't know how to get there. Lame excuse, I know. But I just want to get up and DO something, GO somewhere and HELP people. I'm so fortunate that God gave me this life, and I want to do all that I can to make other's lives better.

Are you dating the last boy you talked to?
Haha, nope.

When is the last time you took a nap?
A week ago?

What are you listening to right now?
The television.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Ellieee.

What was on your mind most today?

Well I woke up like an hour ago...but I guess what i'm doing the rest of the day?

Something that happened today that made you angry?
Nothing:)

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
Depends who you are! But kind of hide them more.

Do you wear makeup?

Somedays.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Fo sho.

What color is your hair?
Light brown.

Who was the last person you talked to in person?
Tyler & Ellie.

What are you doing tonight?
Volleyball open gym, VBS, then i don't know!

What did you do yesterday?
Woke up, went on a bike ride with Marge:), VBS, drove around, hung out with my sis. Haha:)

Are you happy right now?
Sure:)

Are you cold?
Kinda.

First thing you do when you wake up?
Look at my clock.

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
Depends, sometimes a long time, sometimes really quick:)

What do your friends call you?

Ana, On-A chair, Banana. Haha pretty much just Ana.

What is your pet's name?
I have none:( But my car's name is ronaldo!

Do you have any siblings? Do you get along?
One brother and one sister. And yes:)

Do you cry a lot?
Nada.

Would you prefer to date a celebrity?
Hah whatever's supposed to happen...

Are you good at keeping secrets?
Yeahs.

Do you participate in gym class?
We don't have PE anymore:(

Has anyone ever sang to you?
Well yeah...

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
Yes.

What is your favorite color?
PINK

What color are your eyes?
Blue-green-gray.

Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep?
Both, combined:)

How long does it take you to shower?
Like ten minutes.

I'm sooo frustrated right now. I can't even type it all out. For realzies.

Sorry for all the short posts.

Four Queens. Come Visit Me. You'll Make Me Happy:)

Last night, I had something really exciting to say. And I specifically remember thinking about how I'm going to blog it. But I forgot it.

Too. Tired. To. Function.

I am so tired right now! I don't really know why, except that I didn't really sleep good last night. I don't have much exciting to write about. Summer, not gonna lie, is kind of lame. I feel like every night my group of friends just goes to someone's house and watches a movie. I want to do something awesomeeee! Like go fishing, or star gazing, or creek stomping, or play ultimate frisbee, or go to walmart at three in the morning, or play hide and seek, or go on road trips, or take pictures, or i don't even know. Just something that's super awesome fun. I want this summer to be one that's like, the best summer I've ever had. Last summer was just filled with lots of depressing things and I was gone for the majority of it. This summer I want to meet new people. But I'm just too gosh dang shy when it comes to that. This summer I want to take risks, and grow closer with God. I wanted to do a mission trip really bad, but that didn't really fall into place, so I want to serve God right here in good ol' Cedar Falls. This summer I want to grow closer with God, and help others grow closer with God. Maybe this summer wont be so bad after all...

One Year.

"I guess heaven was needing a hero, somebody just like you. Brave enough to stand up for what you believe and follow it through. When I try to make it make sense in my mind the only conclusion I come to is heaven was needing a hero like you."

It's been one year since Devon passed away. I feel almost silly, because there are so many people that were way closer to him than I was. It's been a hard year. I still remember that day last year when Struck told us. I just remember thinking that it couldn't be real. Although I felt like this was in God's plan and sometimes God gives, and sometimes he takes away. I really thought that because of Devon's tragic death and how it happened, that this would be a wake up call and people would stop drinking and doing drugs. Nope. I was wrong. It made me really mad that last night, people would all go out and drink. People say they do that because Devon would want them to, but honestly, do you really think he would?

It always hurt me when people drank before, and I could never understand why, and no its jsut so much more confusing to me.

It's funny, well not really, but I miss Devon, and I didn't even know him all that well. Sure we had talked some and hung out a couple times, and I miss him a lot. It's almost like I wince every time I say the name Devon because it's just to surreal.

Well that's kind of all I really have to say. Soooooooo, bye?