7/11/2010

This weekend: Went to Mall of America

So, Bailey, Karen, Maddie, Taryn, Ellie and I decided to go on a road trip to the mall of america for two days. We spent the night and it seriously, was one of the best weekends I have had in a long time.
Before, I felt like me and those guys were getting kind of seperated, I mean, I just didn't hang out with them a lot and I noticed our differences more than our similarities. I had doubts about this trip and just thought about the worst that could happen. It was seriously sooo fun. We got to the mall around noon and ate. Then shopped until like six. Then we went to the hhotel, got ready and headed back to the mall to eat at rainforest cafe, then we shopped more. We went back to the hotel, went swimming, pierced Karen's ears, and slept. The next day we went to the mall at like eleven, and shopped and went on some rides. Then headed back. Man it was fun.

Oh, so I have kind of a dilema...
So my sister, my aunt, my mom and I are going to New York July 25-30. Here's the deal,  I don't really want to go. I mean nothing bad about new york, just it's not really my type of trip. i know it's going to be awesome, but I would rather go on a vacation to the wilderness or the beach or something rather than a unusually large city. I think it's more of a trip for Ellie, and I know she's really excited about it.

Before the trip, I REALLY wanted to go on caravan, but the dates crossed over and i missed the sign up deadline so I just decided I wasn't going to go. But WOAH, what do you know, there's three spots open now. I talked to Karen about going, and she said she wants to. I know that that has the potential to changer not only mine, but her life too. Last caravan she went on, honestly changed her. This sounds kind of chesy, but this is like her last summer to do caravan, right now, she doesn't really believe in God, but she's searching for what to believe in, and I think that she WANTS to believe in God, she just can't seem to put some answers to some of her questions, if that makes any sense. But anyways, I just feel like this is God telling me and her to go, I feel like if she doesn't go, this is going to be like her last chance because who knows what's going to happen when she goes into college. I know if I talked to my mom about this, she wouldn't understand at all. Like right now, it's not even that I want to go on Caravan myself, it's just that I see a life changing possibilty for Karen. and I know that she wont go on Caravan by herself.

Also, that week that I'm gone is volleyball team camp. My mom doesn't seem to understand how important this is to me. This year is the last year I can play volleyball. We have an amazing new coach, and actually have a chance to be decent. Being a senior, i have a BIG leadership role. I want to take advantage and use my abilities to make our team like one big family, and if i don't go to team camp, I feel like I am losing my chance, I don't know. I feel like I can't be a very dedicated player if I'm not going to team camp.

I don't know. Frustration a little bit. But whatever God wants to happen will find a way to be.
Adios.
Sleep tight.