Well this is the hardest day I've had in a long time. I didn't even know Chris McCully, at all. And somehow his death has changed me. When I looked at his profile, I couldn't help to remember when Devon died. Seriously, it doesn't happen often, but I just broke down. Going through all of the wall posts people had posted on Devon's facebook just reminds me how much of an amazing person he was and how much he is missed. Everytime I think about death the lyrics from Blessed be the Name pop into my head. I mean God does give and takes away. I think that sometimes we forget about all of the amazing things God has given us..and we just focused on what he takes away. But He has a purpose in doing those things! Maybe we can use these deaths to become better people, God took away Chris McCully, who from what I've heard was an extremely nice person, maybe we can all act a little nicer to attempt to fill his spot, even though that's impossible.

Ya know, after Devon died a lot of people blamed God. One of my best friends, who constantly inspired me to grow more in my faith and get into a deeper relationship with God completely lost her faith. She couldn't find a reason not to blame God. It kills me inside. It literally causes me physical pain, because I know that without her, I wouldn't be where I am today in my walk with God. I don't know, I guess I'm just writing this to just think about things. It's been a long time since I've thought about all this. Sometimes it's really hard to just put on a happy face and smile.